Thinking

I like when it's raining it keeps my focus on my messy mind. Last night I went to bed early because my body was really tired of doing anything "productive"..my brain was freaked out as well. Weird dreams came.. I'm trying to dream of English Scenarios because if I speak this language in my dreams it's suposed to mean that i've adopted it much better.. But, a year has not been enough to dream of speaking English instead having weird dreams. I think, it has to be an issue of million ideas that come out from my thoughts every day. One of them is the fact that I will be here trying to figure out how I can do things better for myself and thinking about the people who I care about, people who I love, I miss and who I don't wanna miss never ever and I want to keep by my side always... It's the fact that I have to picture out the good side of any experience, and this one in particular, has taught me how to develop a stronger character and face tough situations without being afraid and thinking before doing and acting. Actually, it also showed me more aspects of my personality that nowadays are broken and came from a paradigm to a reallity that I like. I know more about my weak and strong points and although being Colombian is sensured by some freaking goverments (Like this one) ... I can say that it makes me stronger, thoughtful and more clever than others who have every door open and don't know how to knock it down or unlock it...

On my way

I found some killers on my way to Heaven. They killed my goodness. When I got there, I had to get back, because people without goodness are not allowed in Heaven; so, they sent me to Hell. When I was on my way to Hell, I found the killers again. They killed my soul. When I got there, I had to get back because people without soul are not allowed in Hell. Although, they invited me to get some poison before I left. Suddenly, I noticed that I had drunk the devil in a red shot and all of my demons were free. I lost the reason of my senses, my heart was frozen and I became a selfish and non painful person, ready to live in a place without heaven and Hell; finding misbehavior the way to survive.

or matter whatever...

I don’t have anything to say today… but I want to write something. Can I say just anything...? Anything, anything, anything, anything, anything, anything, anything… and if I say nothing? Nothing, nothing, nothing, nothing………. That has meaning, so… is it something? No, it is not. It is everything …and everything looks bad if I remember it!!! I don’t want to remember “it” anymore!  End point. 

past perfect ???

My grammar book has a text about The Titanic. I read it because I have to improve "past perfect"... but, more than learning how to use this tense; I realized that for Mother Nature, People on the The Titanic were the same. She was wise. The Ocean wasn't classified in social-classes. It covered them with the same water; they were frozen with the same ice, they were terrified equally; they died in the same place, under a unique and indiscriminate Ocean.

nine

Last night I couldn't sleep well. I put myself into bed four hours before my alarm started ringing. I was woken up a lot. I heard Bella playing with the rug close to my door. My throat was burning and I had to drink some water. I realized that this year is 2.009 and for some reason I thought about my dog; he is 9 years old now... Bruce might not be the same crazy and lovely dog, he was years ago and the worst thing it that I am so far away him ... I thought, I will not see him again... my alarm rang.

I like the colors of the trees close to my home

I like the colors of the trees close to my home... I thought; that in Fall, the trees have all turned yellow, blue and red; because they extracted the love, dreams and hopefulness from Summer, wanting to give these gifts to every creature; looking forward so that they might keep them in Winter and they will be able to mix these colors and paint the land like a magical and colorful Spring...

unidentified person

Yesterday I read your eyes, I realized that before I found you, I didn't exist for you... after, I became less than that, because I will be thinking of you while you are finding me...